Saturday, September 24, 2011

Uniqueness Not Specialness

Teenage angst, the feeling of loneliness, frustration, sadness, and existentialism all rolled into one. Recently it has seemed to appear more in people than usual. I cannot put a finger down on what is causing it but many people, including myself, seem to be going through transitions of some sort. As a result teenage angst has been high. One of the the vital factors of angst is the feeling that one is alone and is different from everyone else. As a result no one can understand or relate to that person. Coincidentally in my English class we have been reading existentialist works of literature. The big message my teacher is trying to teach us is that we are not special as human beings, but that we can be unique. I think this might be a cause of the angst.

As humans we for the most part want to feel different. We want to think we are better than everyone else is some area and therefore we stand out from the crowd, or become special. I think this is what causes teenage angst. The revelation that we are not special. We do not want to accept that we are just one out of 7 billion people out of 8 planets (Pluto is not one anymore) out of countless universes and galaxies. We are just a grain of sand on a universal scale. I think this helps cause teenage angst. It is caused by the brain unconsciously not wanting to accept that one is just another person. It does not want to think that its problems are universal. In a way it makes a person feel like they have conformed and lost their individuality. They want to feel like a person, not a crowd. Therefore they get angst, making them feel like they are separate from the crowd. It is when someone realizes that everyone has felt the way they do at some point of time do they transcend the unconscious and accept the fact that are not special.

However just because we are not special does not mean we are not unique. This is what makes us individuals. Special means something is better, while unique means something is one of a kind. As humans a person is one of a kind. There will be only one of a specific person (until cloning becomes a thing).  People need to accept the fact that although we are not special, that does not mean we just blend in with the crowd. It might seem contradictory but there is a difference. Be yourself and love yourself for that. However frustration and loneliness are universal feelings everyone has felt. Though you might feel edgy, cool, and different for thinking you are alone, you will only stay there. One must move past it to gain the true uniqueness they desire. I do not think this is the only reason people get angst, but one that most people do not seem to think about.


Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Lights (a poem)

The city sleeps while I’m awake,
I look out the window as the hours take.
The lights are bright and yellow in glow,
The sidewalk reflects the moments thrown.
The air is still and well refined,
Yet the wind cannot seem to untwine.
The night is silent and the stars are fair,
Though everyone seems to want to be elsewhere.
The people sleep and dream above,
Though their desires lean them toward what they love.
The choice is present, the choice is theirs,
But the comfort of the bed leaves no care.
The neon signs flash with might,
Though people seem to ignore the sight.
The lights reflect the window’s glow
As I sit in my bed looking below.


Monday, September 12, 2011

Old Patterns

We all have some old pattern. Maybe it is liking people who are similar or behaving the same to a certain situation. No mater what it is we seem to fall in these old patterns a lot. The question is why? Most of the time the term "old patterns" has a negative connotation. The patterns are usually old for they were something we did not like so we tried to move on and grow. Despite our hardest tries to move away from them we seem to fall back into some of them. The reason is they feel safe. We are so use to them we know we are not trying something out of our comfort zone. Maybe they are harmful to ourselves, but we just fall back into them because we know how to react to them and what to do. It feels "right." It however is not right. We call them old patterns because we want to leave them in the past and grow. It is like some force dragging you back. A force you have to constantly fight. However the struggle makes you stronger for it puts more force on you, a force you exercise to overcome. Breaking out of these forces is what perseverance is about. Once you get out of these, nothing seems to be able to hold you back. You have beaten the past, something that never wants you to leave. Anyway not super long, but sometimes a long essay is not needed.


Sunday, September 4, 2011

The Apple Tree

A little while ago a friend of mine told me an analogy she had about boys looking for girls. "Girls are like apples on a tree. The good ones are at the top, but boys are lazy, so they pick the ones off the bottom. They're the easy ones. but the good ones you have to work for." Now obviously this statement can be vice versa with girls looking for guys. I disagree though. I do not think the problem is people not working for the ones on the top and picking the ones on the bottom. The problem is that people spend so much time looking either up or down that they ignore what is in front of them. Most people when they have an opportunity for something with someone they come up with reasons why the person is not good enough. This is a defense tactic that I for once use a lot. As a result they constantly look up because they do not think anyone is good enough. Some people though has issues in their own confidence so they look down because they do not think they are good enough so they will take whatever is in their reach. Most people have moments of both of these. What people sometimes do not realize is that what they are looking for is right in front of them. It seems to be too easy to be true so people generally ignore it because it goes against society's norms on relationships having to be a hard thing to achieve. I am not always saying it is "the friend" like in any cliche romantic comedy, but sometimes the person we are looking for is just right there. We just do not want to accept it. Try looking in front of you sometimes. It might help you find something you did not see at first. At least it will give your neck a break from always looking up.